Something about Pumpkins

I love Halloween...even with all the nonsense that has been going on in my life I still love it and K is coming into town today!! Woo hooo for that.

Things are starting to look up for me so you all will happy to hear there probably won't be anymore depressing posts.

I love carving pumpkins but this year I was inspired by Ms. Hautemess  and decided to pretify my pumpkins. I know that word does not exist but it kinda does.

I've also rediscovered my love for Candy Corn this year. So my desk is a combo of pretty little pumpkins and bags of candy corn. I also need to thank the candy corn for the stomach aches I've had for a week straight. So good but terrible for you. If I keep this up I will be toothless by Halloween.

The company I work for always takes a Halloween photo every year:

Ooh yes that is me in the sexy maid costume and as Eve the year before

Anyway the point of that was that in an effort to find a work appropriate costume this year I went to the store with the idea that I would find anything and zombify it but of course what really happened was that I walked out of the costume store with a face mask and some peacock wings. Yes, this is what happens to  me when I can't decide on something. So this years picture will feature me in a stupid mask with stupid wings.

The costume that I have planned for this Saturday is all kinds of fun. I spent the few days working hard with my coworker and roommate sewing and cutting up stuff to make it. Sooooo very excited!! Of course I can't show you till I get a good picture in the costume but I am very very excited. I love homemade costumes and I especially love being able to dress up with someone(s).

Running my own sweatshop...my coworker(top) & roomie(bottom) 



Stay tuned for pictures from this weekend that will most likely be a drunken mess. 

Its Ok!

Its about that time again! 

Its ok! 

-that I have gone home everyday this week to lay in my bed, eat soup and watch tv 

-that I am just barely starting to get my Halloween costume together even though I have been planning since June

-to be dying to workout for once (can't for another week or so) 

-that I ate so much candy corn last night I had a majorly upset stomach

-that I finally realized I can still watch Grey's Anatomy on regular tv w/out cable 

-that my bedroom is a disaster and I will have to clean it and the whole apartment next week

-that K is coming in town w/2 friends next weekend and we are all going to be fit into my tiny bedroom and living room

-to be completely freaked out that its been over a week since The Boy and I broke up

-that I still have not blogged about my trip to NY

-for it to be freezing in my bedroom just so I can sleep completely wrapped up the way I like 

-that I am only just this weekend finally going to a Pumpkin Patch (took long enough) 

-That I will be giving blood tomorrow even though I hate needles

I think that is all for now...It is almost Friday!!! 

An explanation

I have been MIA for almost a month now. Meaning to post but finding myself staring at the computer with a complete disinterest in writing what is really on my mind. 


I am going through some very emotional and trying things in my life right now and my mind is just not right. I wish I could put it all down on here but I share this blog with a lot of people that I would rather not be that involved in what is going on. If that even made sense. 


I have been down on myself and in general avoiding the world. Sometimes we have to make decisions that no matter how rational and "for the best" they are still suck.(for lack of a better word) So my life has been a big bundle of suckage. 


To add to my woes, The Boy and I have split.  Knowing the kind of person that I am this could be permanent or it could be a temporary slip of sanity in my messy life. It has been 5 years and 6 months since I met him and after all this time the idea that he and I might be "forever" has slowly deteriorated and because of this we split. He doesn't agree that this is the case, but really...how do you fix that? 


So that is my explanation...it is vague and doesn't necessarily help anyone understand but I promise to get my shit together soon. 

This is not me, but it is sure how I am feeling. 

It's Ok Thursday

I have seen this pop up on a lot of the blogs I read and today just seemed one of those days where I need it. 

       

           --That I have not blogged about the two trips I took the last two weeks. I will be a better blogger tomorrow

         -- That I finally got a new cell phone after my "incident" but still have not downloaded or organized anything on it. 

       ---That I am so excited for the pumpkin patch next week that I feel like a 12 year old 

       --That I have been thinking about Halloween costumes since June and now that it is weeks away I have no clue what I want to wear 

      -- To be so utterly exhausted that the mere idea of doing anything but sleeping is making my brain hurt 

     --To think its terrible that Steve Jobs died, I didn't even know until this morning looking at everyone's FB posts. 

     --To not want to give up on my Flip Flops even though its October and I should let them go 

     --To be so ready for Christmas music and shopping and decorating before Halloween even gets here. 

And that my friends is all I have for now. Its ok!