I am going through some very emotional and trying things in my life right now and my mind is just not right. I wish I could put it all down on here but I share this blog with a lot of people that I would rather not be that involved in what is going on. If that even made sense.
I have been down on myself and in general avoiding the world. Sometimes we have to make decisions that no matter how rational and "for the best" they are still suck.(for lack of a better word) So my life has been a big bundle of suckage.
To add to my woes, The Boy and I have split. Knowing the kind of person that I am this could be permanent or it could be a temporary slip of sanity in my messy life. It has been 5 years and 6 months since I met him and after all this time the idea that he and I might be "forever" has slowly deteriorated and because of this we split. He doesn't agree that this is the case, but really...how do you fix that?
So that is my explanation...it is vague and doesn't necessarily help anyone understand but I promise to get my shit together soon.
|This is not me, but it is sure how I am feeling.|